First off, I can't believe I just officially became a high school graduate. I honestly can't believe it. And it's not a "where's the time gone" kind of feeling. I know where the time went. It took a long time. It's more of a "i can't believe I never have to go back into that school" type of feeling. It's just a massive change in my everyday reutine. It's weird for me to think that at the end of the summer I won't be going back there. It's bittersweet.
The second thing I really want to address is this: I have not healed from losing my best friend. Today, she gave me a hug and said "I'm going to miss you so much". All I wanted to say was that I've been missing you for the past two years. No boy has ever broken my heart the way she did. And even though I truly believe that God took her out of my life for a reason, it is still painful. And it's a mixture of sadness and anger whenever I see her. I'm sad because it's not the same and mad that she let it happen and seems ok with it. One of the biggest lessons I learned in high school was that people really do change and you really do lose friends because of it. And it's not bad, it's just sad because they aren't in your life anymore. But there is always someone ready to fill the spot they left in your life.
Right now, I don't know how I feel. Sick and nervous about the future, but excited that it's happening.
