Love is a Many Splendid Thing

     I just feel like I need to get these emotions written down so I can remember them forever, because I always want to feel like this.  Spoiler alert: This is going to be incredibly cheesy.


     I've always been in love with Tyler.  But, it's been a while since I've had butterflies.  I'm just so comfortable around him.  However, Friday night was Sadie Hawkins at my school.  For those of you who do not know, because I have learned I am wrong to assume everyone knows what this is, Sadie Hawkins is a dance where the girls ask the guys.  I think each school has different traditions with it.  Some go with the county theme, girls wear their daisy dukes and flannel.  At my school though, we just dress the same.


     But anyway, last Friday was the dance. We went to eat with  our best friends, had a blast.  Good stuff.  At the dance, I have gotten used to dancing alone because Tyler doesn't dance.  I've learned and adapted.  I dance by myself with my friends and have a good time.  However, Tyler's best friend Codey really wanted Ty to dance with me.  He said that since it was our last Sadie's he should dance with me.  Ty wouldn't.  So, Codey danced with me.  And Tyler, being the amazing guy that he is, said he didn't care if I danced with other people.  So, I did.  I danced with another guy, and danced with Codey again.  Then, it happened.


      I was dancing with Codey and Tyler just came up and started dancing with me.  Now, I know that this doesn't seem like a big deal.  But it really is.  I fought a long battle with him about dancing with me that I gave up.  He was so adamant about not liking to dance to that music and blah blah blah.  Words cannot express how happy I was.


     Then, when we were slow dancing during the last song, he sang in my ear.  I literally swooned.  

     To make a long story short, guys, I fell a little more in love with Tyler that night.  I feel giddy about him again.  I dream about him.  I just want to be in his arms.  


     He's in New York City right now, and he keeps sending me pictures.  And I can't get him off my mind.  And since this is sort of like my journal, I feel I need to say what is sitting in the back of my mind:  what am I going to do next when I don't get to see him?




Oh, the song he sang to me?  Iris, by the Goo Goo Dolls.


"And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life.
'Cause sooner or later it's over.
I just don't want to miss you tonight."

Nerves

Ahhhh!!  My mom reminded me that Annie Get Your Gun is in three weeks and I felt like I was going to throw up!  All of a sudden I got reeeaaalll nervous!  Oh gee!  I hope I am ready.  I've already prayed about it, but would love some more.  

The worst part is senior-itus is starting to kick in.  Not good timing.  This is the busiest time.  Every scholarship in the world is due.   And I feel like I'm going to do all this work for nothing in return.  I'm almost just ready to push fast forward and have March and April fly by.  I want it to slow down for May though.  And I bet that's how it will happen.  I just want to go to prom and dance away all my worries.  

Humanity

So, I was just browsing YouTube, and was catching up on some of my subscriptions.  I watch this show called the Phillip DeFranko Show.  He does the news and makes it funny usually.  It's kind of like the Soup, only real news stories.  Today, however, he was really serious.  He was talking about Japan and the horrible natural disasters there.  He was most touched because his mother called him concerned because she thought he was still in Italy.  He isn't.  But that made him realize that people all over the world were making that same phone call, but not getting a response.  


     But, that's not what really got to me.  What got to me were the comments.  There were so many good ones.  People saying pray for Japan and telling Phil how touching that video was.  It was refreshing to see that side of him.  However, other comments blew my mind.  Like this one: "The Japs killed Americans so I don't really care what happens to them.  I just care about the U.S. west coast."


Hmm. I'm pretty sure we set two nuclear bombs on them.  And killed thousands or more innocent people.  And nuclear bombs don't just kill on impact.  The aftermath affects the lives of those for a long time.  It kills me to think about all the babies born with birth defects because of it.  And yet, they killed us.  So we don't care that thousands of innocent people were swept up by a giant wave as the slept or drove to work.  We don't care that they were crushed by a fallen building during the quake and it's after shocks.  


     when will we decide to see past race, gender, and nationality?  When will we realize we are all people?  


     Pray for Japan.  Pray that Hawaii stays safe.  Pray that we all some humanity.